"What do you imagine, as you sit there and stare at the wall?"
I imagine, for a long, brief second, running away into this place with only pinpoints of light, and a comforting blackness all around - a black darkness that envelops me, that has nothing to do with you or this world.
I cherished those moments so much, as I stop time two seconds long enough to look back, and remember - I cherished them because you were with me.
Since when have we lost
The wonderful things that we need somewhere?
I fear the connection to your heart
And I buried myself with my body
During those days when I lied everyday about my fear,
You were already in my heart
If we can think deeply
That someday time will end here,
I think that I will always love you
And I'll be holding out my hand to you
Love is such a scary thing
That’s why we run away as we search for it.
If I have no one to turn to, my tears will catch me and in return for the favor, they tear at my heart and hurt me until I feel as though nothing can help me but the sobs escaping from my lips.
No.
I just...wanted to mourn.
No one was physically injured, no one was dead, no one had moved away or left. But someone was crying. Someone was crying somewhere in the world, and they were hurting. And, for some reason, it made me cry too. It made me think of sweet and lost memories, of a time when nothing could go wrong, of a place where only children were allowed to cry- to cry over petty things like a broken or lost toy- not people who already know of the world.
Words destroy what the heart truly has to say. The things that are worth mentioning, the things that are worth feeling, or knowing. Words help to express our emotions, help to express the basis of what we need to let out- but they can never fully express our deepest and strongest meanings.
They can’t make others feel what we feel, can’t make others experience what we experience. They can’t make others understand.
Then we will fall. Even those born in nature, born with two wings and the instincts of a navigator scouting the ocean of blue above our heads. As flawless, as beautiful, as trained and learned as we are- even the most,
The most graceful of us can fall.
I stare up at the ceiling at night, and I keep searching. I keep searching, and hoping, and wishing I could disappear.
"I would have done it, just so the echoing and harrowing feelings would fade away into nothing but a misty and foggy night - a night so dark and boundless that if one tried an arm out towards it, nothing but a black coldness would have answered in touch."
I can't describe it...it feels so...ugh. I think it's different for everyone and for me, it hurts.
When the rain falls and I lay on the ground and stare up at the ceiling, I wish I could talk to you.
If your brain controls your emotions, and not your heart, then why does it hurt in your heart?
I felt sad inside, as I stared at the date, realizing how much time has passed by.
If I don't even know myself... how can I face the next day, not knowing what I really want from life?
Wish @ 11:11 PM
Wish @ 11:11 AM
Wish on a shooting star
Wish after making 1000 paper cranes
Wish after throwing a penny into the water fountain
Wish before the verge of death
Keep wishing for a miracle.
"I was so afraid someone would come...and hate me."
I'm missing everyone.
I do, I promise I do...
The world will not stop for you, it will not wait for you. You catch it before it's gone...or miss it. Forever.
I think of tomorrow and I wonder, "What's going to happen?"
The ties between people are fragile
I HATE CHANGE!!!! I HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT!!! One day, we will all change...and I'm truly afraid of it.
"We had the awards ceremony...and I started crying in it. My administrator gave me a look that said, "What's wrong?" And I started crying again. Maybe it was because I saw someone who cared about my feelings... It just made me sad that there were some people that sort of cared..."
Why can't we learn from our mistakes?
Memories...
Where are all the good ones?
Feel my pain, please. Borrow it for awhile, so I may feel better. Even if it's only for a little while. Stop these tears because I've cried oceans of them. Someone understand me. Be my best true friend. And never leave me, no matter what.
The day is not day, but night. The stars touching the world and not the sky. Expanding, unafraid. Daring to be a part of everything and not just something.
How could you know a life is precious...
If new lives happen everyday?
You can cry, and cry so much, but there will always be people indifferent to your tears. You can hurt, hurt as though you are slowly dying - pain ripping you inside out, tearing you apart piece by piece - but there will always be people uncaring, to your suffering.
Sometimes I'm afraid there's something wrong with me
I look up at the blue sky, and I imagine where he is, what he's doing at this moment, how he's feeling inside, if he ever thinks about me like I do with him. All I want is him.
Is something wrong with me?
I'm afraid of what tomorrow may bring.
Почему мы плачем?
I wish I knew...why we cried.